My "in between day"

My father, born on Christmas day and placed under the tree by Grandpa

This has always been a happy day for me because yesterday was Christmas and tomorrow is my birthday. It's my "in between day." I should add, we had a white Christmas, that is very rare here in Texas.

Instead of feeling happy today, I'm irritable, angry, frustrated and sad. I had the worst Christmas I can ever remember. I envisioned a quiet night around the lighted Christmas tree, reading of Christ's birth from the scriptures, remembering and feeling His love. I could get a hug as my only present and I would be grateful. I am not about buying gifts just so the kids will have something to open. If I purchase a gift, it must have meaning and love behind it. My Christmas went poorly because blended families can divide rather than blend. When Brooke came to me and asked, "why did Tim fill all the girls stockings except mine?" I was reminded that she is mine, her father is dead and Tim has not embraced her in his heart.

Christmas felt more like an obligation than a celebration. I long for a Christ centered home instead of just a half Christ centered home. I love my husband, but I wish he knew how true happiness and joy are obtained.

As my daughter Crystal would say, "mom, quit being a Debbie downer, be happy." So, I am off to make sure my happy "in between day" stays happy. I'm turning my frown upside down and smiling this frown away.

Thanksgiving thoughts

My husband bought a camera that takes pictures upon motion detection. Thanks to this camera, he can now see the deer on the land he has leased even if he isn't there to see/shoot them in person. The deer in these 2 pictures has Tim so excited to go hunting every weekend. He can't wait to meet him in person.

We left to our camping spot on the deer lease on Thanksgiving morning. We went sans children and we cooked a delicious turkey over a campfire. We spent 2 wonderful days reminiscing about falling in love and enduring the challenges our marriage has faced.

I said, "we have to say what we are thankful for." Tim did not have to even think about his response. He said, "I am thankful for a wife who is so brave, stood by me when a lesser person would not have done so and has so much love in her heart for me and others." Wow! I replied, "it was a tremendous honor for me to be the one at your side, loving and supporting you in your time of trial and despair, and I have no regrets."

I am thankful for the love, dignity and respect I have been blessed with being married to Timothy Wayne Barrett.