This economy keeps nipping at my heels. My husband spent 2 weeks looking for work after having his job re-defined and put on hold by a...dare I say...company that lacks character and integrity (that's putting it mildly, no great loss to me). He is a hard worker and very good at his trade, so he was able to get a side job as a crane operator building the bridge over Lake Lewisville to Little Elm. The pay is almost as good but benefits don't kick in for 6 months. The whole family is without insurance right now so far as I can tell, his former company isn't taking calls.
I had a plan when I quit my job months ago...school, student loans, more time with family, providing daycare for the sweetest twin baby boys with the added bonus of helping out a friend. All that has changed. Daycare is on hold as my friends divorce and custody battle ensues. I can only offer support and friendship for now...she will need plenty and she can have all I can give. I was going to work part-time at my old job to bring in extra money as needed...that hasn't been able to happen yet. No income for me right now.
I spend my days trying to get back to the basics, the things I use to be a pro at...laundry neatly folded and put away, family dinner cooked every night, peaceful daily scripture study, prayer with my children several times a day, having my special day each week where I taught my children (individually) to cook family dinner (some of the best times together).
You see, my work (the job I quit) was stressful, kept me away from family dinners, holidays, homework times. I wasn't able to nurture my family very well and little by little, I forgot how to do it the way I used to.
So here I am...a little lost...by myself much of the day trying to find ways to make the lives of those I love a little easier. The last time I was a full-time mom my house was full of life. I had 3-4 foster children at a time living with me (talk about tremendously difficult but rewarding work and Katie, I totally feel for you with the lice thing), my own 2, and then later 4, children to teach and love and I drove from West Valley City to Provo, Ut back and forth 4 days a week for class (went back to school, pre-med :-) and graduated from Brigham Young University with a BS).
I miss the days when I knew exactly what was suppose to happen every day, hour and minute. The many responsibilities, all very worthy endeavors, directed my every move and never left a quietness unless it was from a much appreciated prayer or from the child that finally fell asleep on my shoulder, sick and lying in my arms finally comforted. YES!!! I miss all that!
I worked hard to be a great wife, mother and daughter back then. I'm trying to re-group from my 8 years as a single...working...over-stressed.. inactive because I had to work on sunday (no excuse for how far I let myself slide)...mother, and I feel so lost. Don't get me wrong, I am glad to be back but I had no idea how much it cost me to be away and so stressed for so long. I only hope I can find my path....be able to serve others more fully again...and make up for lost opportunities to nurture the wonderful people around me.
I had a plan when I quit my job months ago...school, student loans, more time with family, providing daycare for the sweetest twin baby boys with the added bonus of helping out a friend. All that has changed. Daycare is on hold as my friends divorce and custody battle ensues. I can only offer support and friendship for now...she will need plenty and she can have all I can give. I was going to work part-time at my old job to bring in extra money as needed...that hasn't been able to happen yet. No income for me right now.
I spend my days trying to get back to the basics, the things I use to be a pro at...laundry neatly folded and put away, family dinner cooked every night, peaceful daily scripture study, prayer with my children several times a day, having my special day each week where I taught my children (individually) to cook family dinner (some of the best times together).
You see, my work (the job I quit) was stressful, kept me away from family dinners, holidays, homework times. I wasn't able to nurture my family very well and little by little, I forgot how to do it the way I used to.
So here I am...a little lost...by myself much of the day trying to find ways to make the lives of those I love a little easier. The last time I was a full-time mom my house was full of life. I had 3-4 foster children at a time living with me (talk about tremendously difficult but rewarding work and Katie, I totally feel for you with the lice thing), my own 2, and then later 4, children to teach and love and I drove from West Valley City to Provo, Ut back and forth 4 days a week for class (went back to school, pre-med :-) and graduated from Brigham Young University with a BS).
I miss the days when I knew exactly what was suppose to happen every day, hour and minute. The many responsibilities, all very worthy endeavors, directed my every move and never left a quietness unless it was from a much appreciated prayer or from the child that finally fell asleep on my shoulder, sick and lying in my arms finally comforted. YES!!! I miss all that!
I worked hard to be a great wife, mother and daughter back then. I'm trying to re-group from my 8 years as a single...working...over-stressed.. inactive because I had to work on sunday (no excuse for how far I let myself slide)...mother, and I feel so lost. Don't get me wrong, I am glad to be back but I had no idea how much it cost me to be away and so stressed for so long. I only hope I can find my path....be able to serve others more fully again...and make up for lost opportunities to nurture the wonderful people around me.
April,you are doing so well as you find your footing at home. I am so impressed by you, by all you are doing and becoming. I feel so blessed to know you-and to count you as a friend. Come over here for lunch, lets spend some time together!
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